Darkside of a Woman: Sadness

I've been in a roller coaster of emotions lately. Too many things happened in a span of 3 weeks. Of course, we all know the Ondoy and Pepeng tragedy. I cannot believe that people I actually know experienced it. I know that most of us, one way or another knows victims or knows someone who knows a victim.. I can't help but just sigh... and sigh... and sigh again.

But the good thing about it, is the outpour of help, those people who really don't know each other work together to help....to help those victims they don't know. It's amazing to see the innate goodness of a lot of people. Difficult things really bring out the best in a person.

In the midst of all these, I am also experiencing a 360 degrees turn. Maybe that's why I'm really feeling low. I am so used to leaving the house, going to Manila to study since high school, even college and law school. Living in Hk for 9 months to study my masteral and to go on official travels in the office here or abroad for a few days or weeks. I am so used to leaving THEM behind. Just going home after, with my ready pasalubong for daddy and Me Ann as they wished. But this time, Me ann had to leave to study for one year in Germany. What? Me? left alone? .. to daddy, and to run the house? Ano, hilo?!? But I am actually glad that she would. I know that she deserves it and I also want her to experience Europe again, alone.

But even then, I have my reservations. Me Ann never lived on her own. Since birth... Our house is her comfort zone. Would she be ok? Will it not be difficult for her? what about this, what about that, what about ..what about... worries, worries, worries... I was so damn worried, I kept on thinking, I cried... and cried and cried until i can cry no more. Until I got tired...

Now, I'm trying to adjust to the situation. I know there is a reason for this. Actually, I am really happy to know that she's enjoying and experiencing Europe. I badly wanted her to experience all the things that she is experiencing and will experience. I am just glad.

I know, back here, I can manage. And I know that she can manage there too. Kaya naman niya. The experience will make her a better person..